The last few days I have had to force myself to stay busy, and keep my mind constantly occupied. If I don't I keep thinking about the past and all the abuse my father put me through. It seems if I think about it for more then a few seconds I become so angry I want to scream. Not just scream at the wall, but scream at anything and anyone around. My nerves are on edge and I feel like I am losing it. I feel like an anger is taking charge of my imagination that I worry I soon won't be able to control. I have gone through stages of fear, anger, guilt, more fear, more guilt, but now this anger it turning to rage. I keep picturing myself doing things to my dad who isn't even alive anymore. I am doing cruel things out of rage, anger, and revenge. I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to have thoughts like he did. I feel like he is invading who I am and I am becoming him. I don't know what to do.