How am I supposed to let the past go? When I was a happy 10 year old, me and my family moved to a town 200 miles away. From day 1 I was bullied for being different, in looks, in behaviour and so on. I made friends, but the bullies remained, taunting me for something I could do nothing to change. Home life was no rest bite from school life, my father suffers from multiple mental health disorders, so coming home to listen to him rant and rave gave my mind no time to relax. When I got to 16 and finished high school, we moved back closer to my original home. Becoming unsettled once again, but I thought maybe a fresh start would do me some good. I struggled to settle, working for a while, but at 18 I went to college and I made a few friends, I thought finally things were going my way. However at 19 I was struck down by a severe viral infection and ended up being diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. 7 years on, I'm 26 and my life is like ground hog day, being isolated because of my illness made me develop severe depression and social anxiety. So even when I do have some energy to more than usual, my anxiety and depression shackles me. The 2 worst things about my illness are: 1/ The constant reminders I have about my past, with so much time in the day, all I can do is be reminded of it. Even in my sleep I am reminded of it. 2/ The missed life experiences, while everyone else grows up, has a career, a house,a family, I'm still stuck at the same spot I was at 19. How am I supposed to let the past go, when I can't move forward? I can't work, so I can't own my own home, if I started dating would a woman ever accept that I can't ever work? Because I wouldn't expect them to. The way I see my life is that I will be forever in limbo, if purgatory was real, I'd imagine it would be exactly like this. Is there any hope for a 26 year old suffering from a debilitating illness, to have even a semblance of a life?