I have been suffering from Depression and Anxiety since as long as I can remember. Over the past 5 or 6 years it has gotten progressively worse, and I am running out of ways to cope and reasons to live. Towards the end of high school, I got into drugs, mainly heroin and other opiate based pills, and I have turned to those since then to ward off unwanted thoughts and problems, but even though that is so I know that after each high or when I can't get high those issues come back with a vengeance. I have recently tried to get sober, and I have been clean for a few weeks and I feel like my life is a wreck. I don't have any friends, money, self-esteem, and my parents hate me. Plus, my grades in college suck and I feel like I am going nowhere. I don't know what I have to live for, or what to do. I am only 19, and I can't see myself going through life sober for the rest of my years to come. I have tried therapy, going to counselling, but none of their words or suggestions help. Not even medication seems to be working? I am not sure where I stand or if my predicament is going to improve, but I try to keep even the smallest ounce of hope alive.