I know I sound like a hypocrite but hang in there. I know it is not easy and it doesn't seem to get any easier as time goes by. We have to fight this thing together. There is strength in numbers. We just have to be there for eachother.
Carolyn, don't search for methods to go. Look for ways to hang on. Ways to live. You need to hang on for yourself. Learn to love yourself. You are so full of life when it comes to other people. Take a bit of that energy and put it into helping yourself. Listen to the words you say to everyone else. Stay safe hun. :hug: