cant do it nomore.dont want 2 turn int2 one of those ppl that say it all the time and dont.i dont think i am truly alone i know i am.lifes abig joke laughing at me.wish i cud tyake the past back and start afresh but cant. life doesnt like me..and i dont like life so thats how it is. i wana say thx 4 all this site has done 4 me.and th ppl here.shades has been my rock and thisisnt ur fault.u neva say anythin worng.its me and my head thytas wrong.iv tried 2 b right like normal ppl it doesnt work. so many of u have been there 4 me.and i am truly greatful.nothin or no1 can pull me out cause im deep in already.time is something none of us really have.its given 2 us and taken away.we havent got a choice on when that is unles we do something aboiut it. i am in control of me.sure i csn try 2 live bit longer but its gona go at some point.i dont think suicide is cowrdly its sure got 2 be th bravest thiong some1 can do.its bout time i was bvrave and do something right 4 once.