I xxxxxxxxx and ended up with a missing lower right limb 3 years ago.I still cannot adjust to my new status as "Disabled" and I have more to be depressed about than I did originally! I just cannot come to terms with what I have done and I feel so lonely and hopeless. I am so ashamed of what I did - and I suppose it would help if I did not beat myself up and remember that I am suffering from an illness. I have lost all enthusiasm for life and I sit at home everyday and hide from the world. I need help!