So after spending a few days in NYC I realize that life is boring no matter what spin I put on it. That is just the way things are. I look around and see nothing of interest to me. Hell even video games and anime have a hard time keeping my interest these days. And I love those things. I just feel lethargic and tired all the time now. I just want to sleep and not do anything. I can force myself to do stuff but in general I don't want too. In all honesty it is hard to fight my suicidal feelings when I look around at the world and see nothing worth while. I mean yes there are times that are fun and there is stuff to do that is fun. But in the end that time and stuff comes to an end. There comes a time when I am just lying around bored stiff. And I need to get away from the now boring stuff for a bit so that way it makes it seem fun. Either way I am just going to lie in the dark for the rest of the night. If anyone can tell me how to fix these feelings or how to make life seem worth while I am open to suggestions. Can anyone relate? I am sure no one cares.