Life is even more boring

So after spending a few days in NYC I realize that life is boring no matter what spin I put on it. That is just the way things are. I look around and see nothing of interest to me. Hell even video games and anime have a hard time keeping my interest these days. And I love those things.

I just feel lethargic and tired all the time now. I just want to sleep and not do anything. I can force myself to do stuff but in general I don't want too. In all honesty it is hard to fight my suicidal feelings when I look around at the world and see nothing worth while.

I mean yes there are times that are fun and there is stuff to do that is fun. But in the end that time and stuff comes to an end. There comes a time when I am just lying around bored stiff. And I need to get away from the now boring stuff for a bit so that way it makes it seem fun.

Either way I am just going to lie in the dark for the rest of the night. If anyone can tell me how to fix these feelings or how to make life seem worth while I am open to suggestions. Can anyone relate? I am sure no one cares.

 

May I ask what you were doing in NYC? You relocated there for your job or something?

 

It was a business trip to get training for my job.

 

Maybe you are getting depressed on something. But it seems that you don't know. Try to find out which things you are annoyed of??

 

Those who gave us the notion of instant gratification lied to us. We feel like we are owed, when we are not.

Life is not easy, nor is it fruitless. Bliss is nowhere, but contentment lies within. The way can be found by one who searches.

If that doesn't make sense, then I'm sorry to waste your precious time. I sympathise with your feelings of depression.

 

No it makes plenty of sense friend. I guess I am just exhausted from working on making myself content.

 

yeh life sucks, forgotten have you thought about you being a schizoid? or you do yearn for people? don't know after dealing with this shit and so many stages of it, im relapsing into this sense of nothingness, this negativism. it's like an epidemia, pft idk, maybe i was infected. pft. lol idk. *kiss*

this fucking blows. suicide through boredom..pft..i blame the XXI century, pft anyfuckingways- *kiss*