Life is such a horrifying experience. Death, murder, rape, crime , violence, pain , suffering , emptyness, pointlessness. This world makes me so sad, life really is a hell to me. The pain for me is not physical, it is mental. I Have food a safe and comfortable place to sleep in, in natures eyes I guess I could be considered lucky to have such things. This alone does not fill the emptyness of my life, nothing Ive tryed has, and probably nothing ever will. I have absolutely no hope. It seems after this horrible experience called life is over, I will no longer exist and my dream of being happy will never be reality. I am ever confused and desperate, damned to madness.