I hate life. I think I have schizophrenia because I'm always extremely paranoid, nervous, and depressed. Just being alive is psychological torture. The number one thing I look forward to is the day I die. I hate how I have no eagerness to live. Every little bad thing that happens to me bothers me. I feel so oversensitive all the time. I feel so irritated all the time that I want to punch myself. I've waited all my life for things to get better, but things never get better.