I'm hoping people respond to this because I need some insight and to know that I'm not the only one that wonders. I know I'm not it'd just be good to see. Does anyone automatically go to edge when even the smallest thing goes wrong? I got into a small fight with my sister and found out my ex-boyfriend blocked me for pretty much no reason on Facebook. Those two tiny little things sent me spiraling and I don't know why. I feel like hurting myself or taking myself away from the world. A kid I went to high school with took his own life on March 13, 2009. A ton of kids from my school went to the funeral and we all cried a lot. Sometimes I think he had the right idea and I think about him all of the time. His mom writes on his wall all of the time and she blames herself. This really gets to me because my mom recently told me she didn't want to hear about my problems. That really hurt and it's difficult for me to post this right now. I still wouldn't want her or my dad to blame themselves and think it was their fault if I died by my own hand. I wouldn't want anyone to feel like it was something they did to me, even if it was. Why can't there be a way for me to take myself away and not hurt anyone? I'll probably cry myself to sleep tonight. Not that it matters.