Life is the Crisis

What do you do about it? Like I said, I hate it when people point to the blind, the paralyzed, the maimed and say these people found the strength to move on and adapt to their situation and do the best they can so why can't you. All the more power to them, but my injuries aren't visible. People don't know how disturbed I am in my mind, and it's exhausting putting on a front for everybody. And when I come home at night with a pile of work to do, each and every night I wish I was dead. I want the pain and humiliation of living to be over. I'm sick of the isolation, but that's all I know.

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My parents do that too sometimes too; I understand how frustrating that is for you. They often say something along the lines of "so-and-so had it this bad, and they made it through by doing X and Y. Why can't you do that too or weather the storm?" It's tough love, but it just annoys me. When I was feeling suicidal and they said that to me, I was furious.

:hugtackles:

 

Yes, Alex, I would gladly trade mental anguish for physical injuries any time. Well, except for blindness. I know I couldn't deal with that.

 

Maybe not if you somehow regained just a teensy weensy bit of hope that some of the pain and humiliation could subside.

 

I think it's too late. I've shuttered myself away.

 

Then you need intervension and help to get back into life.
Please visit your doctor, get something for the depression, when that is more undercontrol you will be able to think more clearly and perhaps set up some therapy.