I'm a 22 year old man, I have been depressed my entire life. I feel like life is just not worth it, I can get the girls I want with ease, I don't have many enemies, I have a lot of friends, my family supports me pretty much, and looking at me you would think I have it all. I just don't see the point in getting up every morning, I feel like just living my life and breathing is a full time job, I have to act like i'm someone i'm not when others are around me, and it never ends, I never get a vacation, I have to do it 24/7, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. Sleep is my only escape, it's the only thing I look forward to, I don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not when i'm sleeping, I don't think of painful things when i'm sleeping. It's not like i'm going to do anything great with my life, i'm not going to find a cure for anything, or invent anything, so if I go it won't really have a great affect on the world... I have never been to the doctors for my depression, I feel like what's the point of living if the only way I can do so is through pills that make me happy, it's a false happiness. I'm not to the point yet where I have said to myself that I will commit suicide, and I have not set a date or anything. I know you guys will say, think of your family and friends, they will miss you, but how can they miss me when they don't know me, how can anyone know me? I don't even know myself. I look at people with no arms and no legs and they are happy with what they have and to be alive, but i'm in perfect physical health and I want nothing more for this all to end. I don't know, I know my family and friends would be extremely sad if I did this, but why should I live my life for other people, it's not their life, it's my life....Blah, comments, suggestions?