I am so so so sorry for posting here so much, but it just really helps me. I still want to die, really bad. No matter what, the thoughts always creeping back in. The thoughts, & the depression do not stop. I would love to stop everything though. So I don't need to suffer everyday with depression. I think I have other issues to, like anxiety. I want help, But I can not get help, I just can't I do not know why, I can't get myself to tell someone I just can't Again, I am sorry for always wasting your time.