I've been really trying to help myself lately. Today I talked to a girl she said I looked cute and stuff however I know I messed it up. Even if we did hang out she has only seen me with my hat on and old pictures so she doesn't know what I truly look like. I should just give up now there is no girl for me I don't even want to live anymore. I was blessed with being ugly in every single way sure if I cover up enough stuff I kind of have a baby face so I'm cute in a way but I grow hair in every place I don't want and the one place I do want hair is not there I don't even think I'm human I don't know what I am I shouldn't exist.