have suffered from depression since was a child. was recently hospitalized. after came out, tried another suicide attempt. now the house is filled with the odor of smoke. even my chair at work smells of smoke from me. family is not loving. they offer advice, but that is all. thinking of trying vagus nerve stimulator for depression. tired of lonely, lonely life of hell. don't understand why depressed so early and why life is ruined for me so early on.