Life: likes and dislikes

Hi all. What do you like about your life? And what do you dislike about your life? Please be as detailed as possible. Your answers will serve to a particular analysis of mine. :thanks:

 

Like: Art & Music (Not all!!!)
Dislike: Me

 

Thank you and I've read your thread but I don't know what to say as I'm in a very bad state these days. I just hope that you stay alive and talk to a therapist. It may help for you. Good luck.

 

thanx..
I am in the same situation and state... but not in the States. I am an American living in Scandinavia. What the HELL am I doing here??

my therapist is on vacation for 3 weeks

 

What was your reason for moving to Europe?

 

mother: Swedish
father: American

they divorced in 1969. He volunteered for Viet Nam and we came here

 

When I said analysis, I didn't mean like a research, because that's not what I am coming here for. I came here for support. I came here to talk to people. I came here to find some nice people to compensate my pains. I just wanted to see people's perspectives of life. If all suicidal people think the same or like the same about their life.

 

I like to be verbose... bare with me.

Lets start with Dislikes: I dislike society, it's all bullshit. A man is not judged by his word, or his heart or his skill, but by the size of his bank account and the cloths he wears.
I dislike money, I hate it, I'd rather grow, process, and make all my own shit. I can live with out the internet, cars, and television.
I dislike Television, not all of it, but most of it. It always make you feel bad, either your not as pretty, as interesting or as exciting as the thing on TV, it almost designed to make you feel bad.
I HATE myself at time, because of my inability to deal with civilization.
I hate the fact I feel the need to compare with everyone, but everyone does compare everyone, to every one else (say that shit fast).
I hate mayo, never liked it.
I hate the fact I've never had a girl friend. I've had one sexual experience and it was a one night stand, and that girl is now long gone.
I hate all my failures, I hate when I fail, and I hate it the most when that hate and angry, keeps me from just TRYING again.
I hate my emotions, they do really wacky things to me. It be better if I didn't feel half the time.

What I like?

I'm madly in love with alcohol, she hurts me, I drink her, she hurts me more, then I'm numb, and nothing hurts for a little while.
I love physical pain, the hangover, the chest getting tight when I smoked too much, the smell of blood, the soreness of an overworked muscle, the blood smell when you smack your head against a wall, I actually love it.
I like Hip-hop, I dunno why.
I love poetry, Gibran is my favorite.
I love crazy nights out on the town where I get so drunk I don't even give a fuck.
I love Mary Jane, if there was one thing thats ever treated me better. It would be that wacky weed.

I love little intellectual women with deep dark eyes and care free attitudes... to bad they don't like me.

I love my friends (who all have the patience of saints), I love my family even the cousins I'm extremely jealous of.

I love my country (even if I'm angry at it half the time), I love the Army (I miss being a soldier, if only for a few months).


I miss having a Job...

But thats my baggage.

 

Wow. Thank you Seerbrum for the details of your answer. You seem to have a pretty social life. You talk about having friends, getting drunk in town, etc.

I would like to add my opinion when you said that you would prefer to feel less. I can tell you that feeling nothing at all, or having reduced emotions isn't fun at all (for me of course). I don't know about other people. I guess you have a lot of negative emotions then, if you said you hated your emotions.

Lol, I liked it when you attributed a gender to alcohol. You consider it as a female because you are so attached to alcohol like a lover. And when you called marijuana Mary Jane (pronounced almost the same as marijuana). I see that you feel a desire to have a partner. I do too. I never had a girlfriend in my life and I'm 20. Lucky you had a one night stand though. At least you had experienced something with a girl.

 

For having a social life, I kind of lucked out. I've got some KICK ASS friends but even they can disappoint at times. My social life, isn't actually what it use to be, but that was before my recent "screw ups". If anyone wants to know the secret to being Social? FAKE IT. Fake it, till you make it. Ask people, ask the girl what book shes reading, ask the bartender what's his favorite drink, ask the police officer how is day is going. You be suprised what a little eye contact and a simple question will get you.

I'm not good at it, I can be extremely self-absorbed soemtimes, but I'm TRYING, and I think thats important.


Girls are all about self-confidence, I have none. So that explains that situation, but by working on myself, I hope one day to be able to walk around and not care about that tiny little fact.

IT sucks being a "late bloomer" but there is a really awesome quote I can't remember fully, so this is the bastardized verison of it "The fear of remaing in the bud, out weighed the fear of blooming". Basically, It's better late then never, and we both get to enjoy our youth with out having to carry some purse around a mall all day, or deal with lousy relationships. And in emotionally unstable people, a lousy relationship and breakups... can REALLY suck. I rather be healthy, confident, and happy anyways if I'm going to go ahead and involved myself with someone else.

 

I miss having someone to hug.

I miss having to not worry about my prostate. Jesus, the worse thing in the world to be scared for. It's literally part of my child. . . eventually :tongue:.

I like ice cream and chocolate and beer.

I dislike going out to exercise.

I dislike having to work.

I like having money.

I love music
I love reading about writers' lives.
I love imagining things.

I hate feeling depressed.
I hate anxiety attacks.
I hate that I was molested. Really gets my goat.

 

I hate just about everything and everyone at this point, I still like animals to some small degree but not like I used to

I hate greedy cock sucking veterinarians who manipulate you into doing something for their own benefit and don't really give a shit about your animal, I wish they would fucking die

I hate greedy cock sucking evil republicans who only give a fuck about themselves and their bank account, they should fucking die

I like nothing at this point, a year ago I had tons of interests now I am dead

 

Good point Wasted!


The economy sucks ass and it's Bush and Brown's fault. And Russia and China are being dicks in the mud.

 

Economy sucks (not to get off topic here)

Greed. The greed of our former and current adminstations (I voted for OBAMA btw, half his staff owes taxes.... hmmmm) and most of all the Greed of Wallstreet, some one just needs to bomb that place.

The rich, they live in luxury still, while poor people like me are force to sell plasma to pay their gas bill.

I hate money, I rather toil in my own fields, and see what the sweat of my brow can produce. Instead of toiling in the fields to see my efforts go to undesiring fat happy pricks.

I honestly hate money, I'm not even a commie or socialist, I just think any man, woman, or child should be entitled to what they produce. Sounds kinda of fucked considering all the folks out there who don't have the fortune of an able body and mind.

But I rather toil in the field, mow my own wheat so I can feed the sick, the hungry, and the infirmed. If only to know they truely got what they needed and deserved. Instead of losing my job so some one's stock could up an 1/8 of a point.

Money and greed sucks.

 

I like being in control of my life, feeling emotions, getting high, letting people know i dont give a fuck.

i dislike having to wash my ass everytime i take a shit, liars, fake people, snobby people.

 

Likes; finding little silly things too look forward too, or be happy about, like a movie.. though they usually are ruined..

Dislikes; mankind, society, or whatever, all the horrible people, all the bad things that happen, animal cruelty, having to live in this shit place, not having the guts to leave, school. meh.. being alive full stop.

 

Interesting. I'm a misanthrope as well.

 

Mostly I just feel apathatic about everything.

But I'll list a few odd things I liked from in the last few days--
Shopping around the market on Saturday where every stall-owner I spoke to was friendly and smiling, a vase of fresh tulips sitting on my window ledge, a few glasses of rosé, some tasty treats from the supermarket, just kidding around elsewhere on the internet making jokes and wisecracks, watching my favorite tv show, taking a big bill in the mail and setting a match to it over the kitchen sink (oddly satisfying watching it burn!).

Its not much really.

Dislikes, um, everything else in life is pretty bleak at the moment.

 

I like that I'm both internally and externally destructive.
I dislike that I have to work to survive.