Im confused. Exactly what does love mean, and exactly how much longer do I have to remain in this confusion. Play it by 'ere, is what I can hear my old man saying, but is it really true, is it really fair, is it proper, is it responsible. I need to be there for so many people now, and in many ways I enjoy being there, but im not sure im getting any better myself at a personal level. My life has stagnated..and the truth is im not sure I want it too change. Im pretty sure ive upset someone I reallly care about recently..and that situation cannot be recovered. I wish it could be..but the last 24 hours has opened my eyes. How much longer do I continue with this. I need to sort my head out. Im so lost atm...Maybe its the beer talking..I dunno.