I'm also older, single, and childless. I can relate. I'm not sure what we older, single, "alone" people are to do. I doubt any of us "decided" that being alone in our later middle age and on was what we wanted in life.
I'm sorry
@Devenny that friends are few and far between for you right now, despite your efforts to join a church and so on. Those
are the right things to try. Have you thought of an interest course you might take through the school board in the evenings. Those tend be less expensive and still quite fun. I think that if you keep trying, you will find good people to be with. You seem like a nice person...if you lived near me, I'd have you here for coffee or tea.
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Of course I worry sometimes too.
I keep thinking, though, that if worrying doesn't change things, it's a waste of my time and energy. I'm better off trying to find the good moments and small cost-free pleasures that just happen...sunsets, animals, reading a good book, a funny show on TV.
btw,
@Devenny, it took a while for me to "make friends" at church. The people were pleasant and kind enough, but they were already in friendships and relationships, so it took a while to be "noticed". Gradually, as I became a steady presence in the group, I began to make friends. Please keep at it.
I wish good things for all of us. *grouphug*