So yeah. Title pretty much says it. Life seems worthless. Never had a girl. Never even been kissed. Except ones and that was with a prostitute. That's how pathetic I am. I have to pay to get some lip time. When I manage up the courage to ask a girl to go out with me or at least have a drink I usualy get mocked as if I made a good joke. Or I'm such a good friend blablabla... It's been a while since I thought about ending it. But now with the economy in the toilet I don't even have a job left to keep my mind off of things. But now I'm sitting at home with too much sparetime on my hands to think about things and the walls are closing in on me as I realise more and more that my life is one, big, EPIC fail. Even the women that call me a 'good' friend won't notice if I'm gone...not like any of them ever bothers to check in to just say hello.... And my guy friends. They always know seem to know how to find me when THEY need help with something. Everytime I need, only a small, favor they are always to busy. But next time....yadayadayada... Hell...it's f*cking christmas time. I've send out lot's of christmas greetings. Only one person even bothered to respond. The rest...well...seems like everyone forgot I exist. They also seemed to have lost my adress or phonenumber. So I feel once more on need of a drunk, crazed Santa with a shotgun.