I hate my life nothing is going right. First i get the phone call about my rapist which is bad enough now today i finally realise my relationship is a joke. I learnt this when i gave my bf my tablets to look after telling him how bad i felt and he changed the subject then later on my knee gave way and i fell to the floor he ignored me cos he was drunk but just after that he fell over pissed and although i could hardly walk i went to check on him. He only then asked if i was ok when he saw me limping but when i said no he turned over in bed and went to sleep. His drink comes before everything some days i have to take the dog out in the evening on my own as he is too drunk which wouldn't be a problem except i am anxious going out in the evening on my own. I really feel like life isn't woth living anymore.