Life sucks

[Freddy]

I dont know why I go on sometimes. I feel my life is just slowly wasting away. I have thought of suicide on and off for a number of years now. My life is miserable. Its like one bad thing that happens behind another. It seems something always bad happens to me. I feel so alone sometimes. People dont seem to understand how much pain I'm in. They dont understand how much my social anxiety and phobias effect me. I dont see myself in any happy future. I dont feel I even have the support of even my own family. I wasted a good portion of my life away and dont have much to live for. My life is a total mess. If I were have a heart attack and die now I'm ready to go.

 

[Hazel]

Social anxiety is a crippling condition, are you receiving any help or support for this? If not it would be a good idea to go to see your doctor.
Do your family understand what you are going through? If not could you tell them, sometimes they are subsequently more understanding than we give them credit for.

Take care Hazel x

 

[Freddy]

I've been receiving some help for a number of years. It has only helped so much. I'm still quite suicidal because of my life situation and how I feel about things. I really feel depress sometimes as if life isnt worth it. I also have very little resistance to stress. Stress really gets me suicidal as well.

Its hard to talk to my family. It was never a really functional family. My mom has schizophrenia (or some other mental illness) and my father gets angry often and easily. My mom is pretty much housebound and cant leave the house due to fear. My sister is around but its comfortable to talk about these things with her and I dont think she really understand the severity of my anxiety and how much depression, stress & fatigue I get.

Thanks Hazel. You take care too.