Hi. I'm 18, six feet tall, 205 pounds, probably considered overweight. I graduated high school in June. Currently, I live in an apartment with my father that I may be getting evicted from. My father is retired and on social security disability at 1800 dollars a month, half of which goes to rent. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to eat that day. I work at a small restaurant where I can get free food, at least while I work. I have literally no friends. Aside from work, I sit on my computer all day. I have no car and no license to go anywhere. I'm hideous, and I have been rejected by virtually every woman in the world. While people say I need to be confident, I once was, but it was completely destroyed by women. I'll never be loved, and I'll probably never have good money. I want to kill myself just to start over. I hope I can be reborn with good looks and in a rich family instead of living my life in depressed loneliness in my hermit existence.