This thought has constantly echoed in my mind for as long as I can remember. Growing up I was constantly told that I ruin everything, from school clubs to workplaces. I’m currently 16 years old with zero friends, parents that constantly attack me, and a school full of people who want me dead. If I were never born everything would be better for my family and others I’ve influenced, my father would’ve been able to get his dream job of a professional baseball player if he weren’t stuck at home taking care of me when I was first born. My ex-friends would‘ve never had to worry about me coming through and accidentally starting a divide between us. And both my parents would be rich if they weren’t paying my overpriced $10,000 highschool tuition and ultimately being disappointed at how awful my grades turn out if it weren’t for me being alive. My mom told me that I had a low chance of survival when she was pregnant with me, and to be honest, I wish I didn’t survive, and end up ruining our family. Life would be better without me.