Everyone fights with problems and I'm not saying mine are the worst but they suck pretty bad at times so here is a summary of my life story and everything else. I am the middle child of 3 siblings I have a older brother and a younger sister. My childhood wasnt really the best my biological father despised me I looked nothing like him because i took after my mom so he thought that I wasnt his. He would shower my siblings with gifts and affection. The only thing he ever gave me was psyichal and mental abuse. For years I was treated second rate thrown outside all night and forced to sleep witht the dogs to stay warm and forced to fight kids because my father didnt think I had backbone because I would cry. My mother eventually divorced him and things got better for a while. Then school started I was immediately a target for bullying. I had pointed ears and couldn't read or write because no one had ever taught me. If that wasnt enough my brother would make it worse so that he could fit in telling them embarassing things or lies to prolong my suffering he would continue it at home. So basically school was hell for me and I just choose to loose myself in thought or to talk to animals. I didnt have a single friend until the 8th grade and I was very suprised to have people wanting to hang out with me I'll admit I was happy then and was for most of highschool I was hardened from previous years not much got to me and I had a good time not to mention I was 6' 2" and intimadating which helped a bit. I met a cute short blonde girl I dated her for 3 years very happily it was wierd having someone like me like that but I enjoyed it but I was scared when I realized I trully loved her and afraid she would hurt me and we did hit a bit of a rough patch but it passed but she didnt dissapoint me and broke my heart. I'm still getting over it I went out some other girls since then and they seem to all like me pretty well attractively but so far eventually they all break up with me letting me know they don't like me like that. And all my friend from highschool have drifted off either moving away or changing or starting familys no one really has time for me anymore. I have family members who love me true but I can't help but feel lonely and unloved all the time it breaks my heart every time I go to bed with no one to hold or no friends to go do stupid stuff with. I put up a pretty good facade and no one really notices but inside Im always broken. Theres a lot more to my life then this but I hope you get the idea. I don't have much ambition I'm aiming for doctor as a career and going to college to be a nurse as starters but all I really want is to find a girl to love and marry and one day have kids but I just fear that such a future will never be there for me.