Life's disappointing

I haven't been here in almost a year....

My week has been miserable. I had a lot of built-up anger, and I was sad too. My beef is because of the "friends" I have. I don't hear from them unless I send them a message. It's always me making the effort, and I'm sick of it.
I'm also sick of hearing the excuse "I've been busy." It's now an unwanted cliché with me.

I really don't care if you're "busy." I don't care because you have the time to do other things, but none to send me a message to see how I'm doing.

And now for what's bothering in this moment. There's this friend I made online back in February of this year. She actually put in the effort. Now, however, she's not even messaging me on the instant messenger, even though she assured me that she didn't turn her back on me.

What's worse is that she knows I don't have anyone else I can talk to...

 

May I ask if your a girl or guy?

 

I'm a guy. If you're wondering if I have feelings for her, the answer is no.