I used to think that in our lives we were meant here for a purpose. Whether it was to help someone out in their time of need or that to be here for some other reason. I had always felt that need was to take care of my mother in her illness and my niece growing up. Now it seems that my life is just a useless space or void in this world. My niece is all grown up now my life seems to have lost meaning and purpose and became more of a burden to family members. As i sit here writing this now being homeless and writing this in a bathroom so i have somewhere to sleep i wonder if it is truly time for me to go in life and end this misery that is called life. I pray at times that i would get in a car accident so as i could leave this world and i know that suicide is not the answer because i also believe in religion and feel that my soul would be wandering in a empty void for all eternity. Strange i know but i just want to have a normal life and be happy on occasion. It isnt that hard of a request to ask. Well thats it for now. The tylenol pm is kicking in so its time for me to get some shut eye. Ill post back sometime tommorow when i can.