Its funny, i have not been able to sleep well in the past few months, and i looked up my login for this site since i might as well do something as opposed to lying in bed with my eyes open. But the funny thing is i was reading a post from a few months ago and the whole time i was reading i was feeling worse about myself thinking this sounds just like me. Every word of it. And when i looked at the author of the post, it was me. It didnt surprise me though. Nothing has changed. I still have trouble sleeping and even though i am doing everything i am supposed to in life, i am not happy and never will be. Recently i moved and i have something called a Daruma, some people may not know what it is, so i will explain. A Daruma is a little red spherical looking guy who has two white eyes, this is a japanese thing btw. And you make a wish and color in the left eye i believe and when the wish comes true you color in the right eye. And i must have made this wish almost 10 years ago now that i think about it. And every once in awhile someone says whats that and i have to explain, and it reminds me of how nothing has changed. I think i stopped believing that wish was going to come true a year after i made it. I will have a little one eyed daruma for the rest of my life.