Hi, i thought i should welcome myself to the boards again since it has been awhile. Well yeah every now & then i have suicidal "thoughts" but last year oh my gosh i was on this anti-depressant & it actually made me feel suicidal:sad: . So one afteroon i felt like i could not take it anymore & had my towel about to run the water to end it all when all of a sudden before i could even open the door the phone rang..it was my aunt calling my mother. So i got dressed ran downstairs because i had this gut feeling that something was wrong. My two aunts had gotten into a car accident..a truck ran a red light goin 50mph while they were making a left turn, the truck hit the TIP of my aunts car & completely demolished their hood. both of my aunts got out that car without a single scratch..this made me think here i was about to selfishly end my short life & on the other hand both of my aunts could have een critically injured or worse..after this i did not take life for granted. I started thinking of others before myself & this feeling of peace started to feel me. Although life gets tough i hang in there because i know deep down in my heart i was put here for a reason..