I was extremely depressed for a few years, and then I finally got on anti depressants a little over a year ago. I was very relieved when I started anti depressants because I really wanted to feel better. But as I started to feel better I started to sort of missed my depression. I am by no means depression free, but I'm scared to completely let it go. i'm afraid of not having it even though it can (and has) cause the worst agony I will ever know. It's like I don't know who I am without it. I don't know what i will be like, or what happiness even is. Does anyone else feel this way or ever did?