When life gets impossible...when life gets horrible....what does one do? Simply continue enduring extreme circumstances which render them helpless? I'm denied truth, love, peace of mind, and God. I pray and no one answers me. I am suffering bouts with psychic attacks almost twice a month. I have no friends, no one wants to be my friend, no one ever DID. I cannot talk to my psychiatrist about alternative options. I don't need medication and feel better, but I am still feeling suicidal because I am realizing something, I can't keep enduring this! I mean...the zombienes of life is unbearable to endure. It has nothing to do with that trip called Psychiatry. No it has to do with true loss of love. I have become possessed because I have been destroyed! All anyone ever did was make me feel worse. I may not choose to return once I'm dead. I was thinking I'd do it tonight, but I'm too weak.