Lately I've been thinking about how good I've got at hiding issues that I face (in relation to mental health) it's something I've done for a long time but it has reached a point where even those who new what was going on think it is totally something of the past and not a current issue which it is though not to the same extent it is still there. Though I am not even sure if its only because over time I've gotten good at hiding it but I have always been able to function well though my issues. Succeeding well in high school, moving out of home, passing university classes, being involved in activities and voluntary work. Even though everything I have been able to outwardly succeed even if inwardly things are a mess. I think this has caused more issues than anything for me as it makes telling people something is wrong so much harder the amount of times I've told people, even professionals, even a small part of what is going on in my head and got a comment such as 'but you do this and this' an my issues have just been pushed aside because as far as the world can see my life is on track. But this isn't alway the case. It feels as though there are no outward signs of my inward struggle. Sometimes I wonder if this is a large factor in my self harm and I think it is it became a way for the world to see hey she is struggling though I would never show anyone or tell anyone it was almost a way for me to move what I felt inside to the outside. Sometimes even I say to myself that I can't feel like this because outwardly I am fine... Anyway sorry for my 1am rambles just something I've been thinking about.