Hi, I'm just some loser who has wasted all her potential. I was a gifted, sensitive kid who got hated, abused and bullied. I developed numerous mental illnesses along the way--anxiety, then avoidant personality, then anorexia, then depression, and finally borderline personality. Still managed to graduate at the top of my class as valedictorian then pretty much fell apart after that, living a life of quiet desperation. I've tried to kill myself numerous times but just damaged myself in the process. I've worked (but got bullied there too), owned a house, a car, the whole middle class bullshit. It brought me no satisfaction at all. Went in and out of numerous romantic relationships but always got bored with them. Went in and out of school here and there. Got 90's while I was there but then would fall apart emotionally again before I could finish. At 47 I'm 2 credits short of a science degree and living on disability. Nobody of any interest wants anything much to do with me. I'm just a lonely, pathetic loser living in supportive housing who's only "friend" is a social worker. My mother is dying of brain cancer and I can't stop resenting her and my father for rejecting me as a child. All the people who have picked on me are probably happy they've emotionally destroyed me and left me for dead. God what a lot of self pity. That's even worse than the rest of it. I just can't live with myself any longer.