I am 25 and I have had several loved ones die, and it grieves me, but the most painful loved ones lost for me aren't those that die, but those who reject me and I know they live on, most likely without sorrow for me. Several of my closest friends and loved ones from High School and college went and completely rejected me and broke off contact, and I never seem to really know why. Sometimes I have gotten a message "I think we need to move on with our lives". But I don't know how you move on from deeply loving someone and act like its no big deal. I find myself in anguish over it, and they make it seem like they are perfectly fine ignoring years of friendship, and blowing it all off. I don't know exactly if I am trying to make a point, or ask a question, but grieving a "living death" makes me wonder if growing old is worth it. Seems like all age does is give more reasons to grieve.