I have drunk to try and erase the thoughts in my head and that didn’t work. I also learned through the years that there are ways to self medicate with prescription drugs from the doctors that have eased something’s. I have seen countless people over the years to try and help me ease some of the pain and thoughts and I have thought many times too many to count that maybe the only way to end this utmost pain and anguish will be to end my life. I would love to find some way to release the demons and go on with life. I sit here at the computer typing instead of sleeping, because of the fear I have inside of dreaming and reliving my night terrors.