Jainey, please seek some professional help for the trauma you have been through. You CAN recover from it. Starving yourself is not the answer. You will likely collapse and be taken to hospital anyway. Take it from me, I could not eat in 2008 due to severe anxiety, my weight got so low, they were trying to treat me for anorexia. I wasn't anorexic. I was just too anxious to eat and everything I did eat came back up. NOW is the time to seek help hun and know you have us for support.