well i am about as low as i can go tonite
much lower and I won't be here again
went to see a phystri. yesteday afternoon
his first words were "as you know, it is really hard to get help now a days"
now that was encouraging!!
next words....... no new meds. so u can't take anything
next words...... even though u are allergic to sleeping pills u need sleep so take these
and then he gives me a bottle of 120 sleeping pills
no hope is what i got from that visit
so this afternoon i sat in my corner
torn in half
feels like I am sitting on a fence
not sure which way I will fall
there are no outpatient workshops in my town
there is nothing
the nearest city to me closed up the mental health unit
government cut backs
i feel so numb
so uselsss
i don't want to see any more real people
it hurts
i cry feels like no one understands
get over some think
to that i reply then fix my brain
fix the chemical inbalance
but the pills i need to take to fix it with I can't take
how far can i reach out
i try to find a crack, anything, a small crack
anything that I cld look through
but I can't
there is nothing there
every corner i go round
every step i take
just new doors go up
i'm locked in
and im getting tired again
much lower and I won't be here again
went to see a phystri. yesteday afternoon
his first words were "as you know, it is really hard to get help now a days"
now that was encouraging!!
next words....... no new meds. so u can't take anything
next words...... even though u are allergic to sleeping pills u need sleep so take these
and then he gives me a bottle of 120 sleeping pills
no hope is what i got from that visit
so this afternoon i sat in my corner
torn in half
feels like I am sitting on a fence
not sure which way I will fall
there are no outpatient workshops in my town
there is nothing
the nearest city to me closed up the mental health unit
government cut backs
i feel so numb
so uselsss
i don't want to see any more real people
it hurts
i cry feels like no one understands
get over some think
to that i reply then fix my brain
fix the chemical inbalance
but the pills i need to take to fix it with I can't take
how far can i reach out
i try to find a crack, anything, a small crack
anything that I cld look through
but I can't
there is nothing there
every corner i go round
every step i take
just new doors go up
i'm locked in
and im getting tired again