I've been thinking how horrible this christmas will be for so many people, all the millions of peoples who will be having their first christmas without someone they love who died from covid this year, and also like you said those who can't see people cause of lockdown or isolating etc.
My christmases (how do you spell the plural?!) have always been pretty dull and lonely anyway, for a decade its only been me and my mother. It's been a very long time since I had a nice fun christmas with multiple people. This christmas is supposed to be worse anyway as even before the pandemic my mother's work told her she'd have to work this christmas meaning I'd be totally alone (I have nowhere else to go and nobody to visit me). I'm not sure if that's still going ahead but even if it was, with how horrible this year has been, spending christmas alone probably won't faze me.
I'm not in the mood for christmas, if things could improve in my personal life before then then maybe I'd feel a bit brighter for it. It's annoying me seeing all the ads and stuff, kinda feels inappropriate to have these light hearted things when everything's so horrible in the world....idk..... not saying everyone should be gloomy either but idk nothing feels right