Loneliness & Being ignored.

[Krem]

It's getting pretty damn lonely here. I show up for school, where I don't speak to anyone. I come home, where I don't speak to anyone, excluding some greetings to my parents. I go online, where none of my so-called friends initate a conversation with me, and when I try to speak, it most often just gets ignored, or in the rare cases I get a reply, it's usually just a single word. So I go on the message boards I frequent, which are 3 with SF. I don't get replies, and when I do, they're exceptionally few. Some are even good.

And this is not just quick 2-sentance replies which're getting ignored. I'm talking thought-out, serious, intelligent replies, being completely ignored, until the points I made there are used later in the thread.

For the past months, I've not been doing anything. I'd play a video game for a few hours, get bored, browse the internet, and do nothing until I decide to go to sleep. I've actually watched my wall for over an hour. I've taken naps because I was bored.

Can't wait until I get some new books, then I can distract myself from reality. And maybe one day they'll invent a "snooze" button, where I could auto-mate all the parts where I'm not doing anything. But then I'd be on "snooze" until I died from old age.

I certainly hope this won't continue in to my adulthood, though evidence suggests it will.

"Just get friends", "Just go outside", "Get a life" and other such replies are welcome IF they give more detail on how to do it. Otherwise they're as useful as saying "To stop poverty, give the starving people food.", or "If you don't like being poor, just get some money.".

 

[Axiom]

Have you thought about joining some physics/philosphy forums and looking into central organisations that revolve around what interests you?

Believe me on this, once you hit Uni you will be around people who are extremely interested in what they are studying, and will be more open to topics that interest you. High school is.. bland?

18+ is better. People branch off more and start to become more aware of the repetitive shiet that's in their lives, making them more open to other things.

What's your interests/focus? You don't have to tell me, but perhaps you should look into fields that relate to this, and look for online lectures and lectures in your area, aswell as new theories/tech/applications that are related to what interests, so you are stimulating yourself with new information.

If anything, I hope you find the ways that will allow you to break away from boredom. There's always a way if you really want to change it.

 

[Krem]

Sucks that I won't get to Uni though, haha.

 

[KittyGirl]

I'm really sorry, Krem.
The truth is that I think I'm pretty dumb. Since I'm not really smart enough to read your posts and give you a thought-out, serious, intelligent reply- like I assume you would be looking for, given your obvious seriousness and intelligence, I don't say anything at all.
I wish that I could help you but my mind works in a different way than yours does.

I'm sorry...
I'm really not purposely trying to ignore you, I just feel like I'm too far below you to bother wasting your time with my answer. :unsure:

 

[Axiom]

I'm really sorry, Krem.
The truth is that I think I'm pretty dumb. Since I'm not really smart enough to read your posts and give you a thought-out, serious, intelligent reply- like I assume you would be looking for, given your obvious seriousness and intelligence, I don't say anything at all.
I wish that I could help you but my mind works in a different way than yours does.

I'm sorry...
I'm really not purposely trying to ignore you, I just feel like I'm too far below you to bother wasting your time with my answer. :unsure:

Dont ever think that Kittygirl about yourself :hug: It's not true



In anycase Krem, how come you won't be making it to uni? I mean is it because of your depression or because of something such as grades/desire?

 

[Krem]

I've made posts about it, but I'll sum it up, although take it with a few buckets of salt since I'm not educated in these matters:

I'm slightly autistic in some way, so I have disadvantages when learning languages(Among other things, obviously, but they're irrelevant to school-work). I need to pass 4 seperate ones to graduate, and thus move on to Uni. I've never needed to study anything, until now, since it was all some painfully obvious and simple, and thus I don't actually know how to study. And then there's the depression, which has seriously screwed over my memory, so I can't actually remember much (Hence biology and history are a dead end for me). And the utter lack of motivation. I actually failed all my subjects last semester, except the physics-chemistry course, because I simply stopped showing up the last 2-3 weeks, including the finals. I simply couldn't be bothered, and spent the time reading at the library.

And, to Kitty, that's a cute reply, and flattering to be sure, but I doubt you're the only person on the forums here. But, that you admitt that you don't know what the conversation is about, shows you're more mature than many.

Remember, education=|=Intellect. They go hand in hand like twins in a porno, but they're completely seperate.

 

[lifelover]

Remember, education=|=Intellect. They go hand in hand like twins in a porno, but they're completely seperate.

I second that. My doctor is the most inteligent and smart person i ever met and still she make fun of me sometimes because in the time im too scared. I just think of cutting her throat.

 

[Krem]

I second that. My doctor is the most inteligent and smart person i ever met and still she make fun of me sometimes because in the time im too scared. I just think of cutting her throat.

It's a method to get you to do things, since in most masculine cultures, being scared is frowned upon, and thus she mocks your fear, in order for you to, as they say "man up", so that her job, in curing you, is easier. A doctor's job is not to care about the patients' feelings, but their lives and physical health. I'm pretty sure that they only sedate because of ethical rules, and because screaming people are annoying, but I'm probably (hopefully) wrong.

But I'm assuming it's a medical doctor, and not a psychological one. If so, she's being a bitch. :P

Anyway, pretty offtopic. But it's not like this was an important, ground-breaking thread of global proportion.

 

[Ziggy]

I don't get replies, and when I do, they're exceptionally few. Some are even good.

I don't tend to see a persons response as good or bad, right or wrong. If someone tells me that the earth is flat, I think that's quite interesting, I'd like to know more about it, to know more about them.

 

[Krem]

Ah, testicles, I meant that MY replies were sometimes good. Too bad editing timed out..

 

[Krem]

Well, isn't that I grand. I post two poems, and 8 days later, some other guys posts his own. His gets more views, and replies, than mine put together. Lovely. Ah, well, perhaps I should make my titles more explicit, to get the attention of others. Something with profanity, "hate", and/or "love". And caps. And exclamation marks, as well.

 

[Joey's sister]

I am so sorry that you are feeling this lonely. I have way more social interaction in my life than I would prefer, and strangely, sometimes I feel more lonely because of it. So many in my life are talking RIGHT OVER ME, and don't really care what I'm actually saying anyway...
As for things to do to help occupy your time and help you feel less lonely, I agree with a previous poster about looking further into things that catch your interest online and joining a forum on that topic.
Also, I read once that 15 minutes of sunshine on your skin can do wonders for your mood and health, and so I am always trying to get outside for at least that amount of time and walk...maybe you could fill up an mp3 with your favorite music and start walking.
Do you have a job? Perhaps a part-time job would help? A friend of mine works constantly just to stay connected and feel part of something.
Do you like your parents at all? Is it a strange/weird/awkward time in your relationship where you don't really like to talk to them? I'm not sure of the situation there, but I remember I couldn't really open up to my parents at all....but maybe you could see if they are interested in family movie night? Our family, as dysfunctional as it was, still watched a movie together and it did help us to feel more connected...we could discuss the plot later or what we hated etc.
I hope you are able to find a way to begin to connect to others. Others are missing out on some intelligent conversation and fun times with you!

 

[Monsieur]

You're viciously intelligent; therefore nobody wishes to interact with you. Doing so would only break their euphoria of living life as a corrupted hedonist. What can I say, ignorance is truly bliss.

 

[Krem]

...

I get more than 15 minutes of sun on my face- I walk to and from school 3-4 times a day, each walk taking 10-20 minutes. And, yeah, there's still way too much sun. But at least it's setting now, and I can sleep, hah.


I go to school, and no job. And I don't see how it'd connect me anyway- I'd not choose a job where I had to work with others directly. Sure, I can work near people, but I work best alone (People tend to fuck up, among other things). Get in, do work, leave. There's no reason to spend more time or effort than needed.

I do, obviously, like my parents. To a point. They clothe me, shelter me, feed me, and pay for my electricity. And the drive me to places when I need to, and pay attention to my health. They can be incredibly annoying, that is true, and irrational, will not use any real arguments to support their point, and so on, but it's to be expected. Plus, since I technically don't own anything, until next year, they can strip me of my entertainment, which'd be bad. And their taste in things to watch is horrid. My mum watches reality television shows, and my dad watches old action movies. Or, well, sleeps over them. Besides, I prefer reading. Many more good books than good movies, and books last longer. Plus, I pick out flaws in things. They don't like that. Be it logic, technology, facts or words, I will point out when I see something that's blatantly wrong. Most notably, when black holes are treated as 'holes in space'. Infuriating.

To Monsieur: Hah. Not sure if I should take it as friendly, hostile, or neutral, but I like it. Although I challenge your assumption that I'm 'viciously intelligent'; I'd rather say I was serious. People associate that with intellect. Something to do with 'happiness:stupidity:fun, serious:smart:boring', but don't quote me on that.