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i haven't been here for a while, but i'm back again.
still feeling completely lonely.
the feeling is something unique. something that you can never understand unless you're there yourself. the feeling of being unloved, unwanted. of having no friends, and of never being close with the opposite sex. watching your life crumble away and pass you by. it's like those movies where the kid is stuck indoors watching everyone else play outside. when you want more than anything to play, too.
i feel disgusting. unloveable and unwantable. trapped in a grotesque body that no one could ever love. i hate myself and the person i've become. i am completely insecure about my appearance, and for good reason. i don't know why anyone would ever want to associate themselves with me. fat, short, ugly, disgusting. i look like i was beaten with an ugly stick.
being lonely for an extended period of time is absolutely soul crushing. i sometimes feel like i'm losing my mind. i talk on the internet sometimes, but that doesn't help much. i guess it does keep me from going completely over the edge. i've fallen into an extreme rut of depression. the feeling is hopelessness.
i don't want to kill myself, but i always think about it. i try hard to eliminate that option, but it's always there.
i'm sorry for posting something like this. i know it's hard to give advice/help for someone like me. i just wanted to get this off my chest and see if maybe there is anyone that can relate...
still feeling completely lonely.
the feeling is something unique. something that you can never understand unless you're there yourself. the feeling of being unloved, unwanted. of having no friends, and of never being close with the opposite sex. watching your life crumble away and pass you by. it's like those movies where the kid is stuck indoors watching everyone else play outside. when you want more than anything to play, too.
i feel disgusting. unloveable and unwantable. trapped in a grotesque body that no one could ever love. i hate myself and the person i've become. i am completely insecure about my appearance, and for good reason. i don't know why anyone would ever want to associate themselves with me. fat, short, ugly, disgusting. i look like i was beaten with an ugly stick.
being lonely for an extended period of time is absolutely soul crushing. i sometimes feel like i'm losing my mind. i talk on the internet sometimes, but that doesn't help much. i guess it does keep me from going completely over the edge. i've fallen into an extreme rut of depression. the feeling is hopelessness.
i don't want to kill myself, but i always think about it. i try hard to eliminate that option, but it's always there.
i'm sorry for posting something like this. i know it's hard to give advice/help for someone like me. i just wanted to get this off my chest and see if maybe there is anyone that can relate...