I haven't been here for a while, but I really wanted to talk to someone about this and I realized it's not something I can talk about with anyone I know in real life. I hope this is in the right place. In my life I've known and drifted apart from a lot of people, mostly because I've lived in 3 different countries, but with more recent friends I think it's because I've messed things up. Today I was thinking about the people I feel totally connected with and I realized that even though I do have one great and loyal friend at the moment, I don't truly feel connected with anyone. It's not at fault with the other people in my life, it seems to just be the way it is. I'm scared I'll never really feel connected with anyone again and that I will spend the rest of my life extremely aware of feeling alone and unable to do anything about it. This is just a really scary feeling.