I have been depressed and sad as long as I can remember but the feelings intensified sometime between age 17 and 18. I have no friends in the new place I live. I get up go to work go home and repeat. I had a girlfriend that I loved so much she was my only friend but she can't take me acting "crazy" and "psyco". I'm going to a psychologist soon but I guess it was too late for her... I hate myself and have no self esteem so I am horrible at making friends of any kind. I don't even get to see my girlfriends child that I loved because she is gone. I feel like if I don't kill myself now I am only putting off the inevitable. My parents and I have a bad relationship and I don't see that changing anytime soon. I'm going to work at this same shitty job for the rest of my life someone tell me why I should keep going even another day.