I have this overwhelming sense of loneliness from isolating myself for so long and i'm too scared to talk to other people because everytime I get close to someone I stuff it up somehow. And I don't have a close relationship with my family because of stuff they've put me through.
Also when talking to people I end up blanking out and being unable to say anything, even right now I feel my head becoming really clouded.
I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like this isolating feeling is going to last forever and I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.
If I was gone then no one would have to put up with me being around them and being sad. And I wouldn't have to have this feeling anymore. Me being gone wouldn't have any significant change to the world.
Also when talking to people I end up blanking out and being unable to say anything, even right now I feel my head becoming really clouded.
I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like this isolating feeling is going to last forever and I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.
If I was gone then no one would have to put up with me being around them and being sad. And I wouldn't have to have this feeling anymore. Me being gone wouldn't have any significant change to the world.