How do you guys deal with this? I've been alone for such a long time. Then I suddenly got a really good friend. Spending every second of the day together. Actually having FUN with life instead of dreading it. It had been going for about a year. My very special friend. I noticed recently. Has seemingly lost interest in me. I was mysterious - the kind of guy. You didn't know about. I was innocent. And hadn't tried crazy things. No one had gotten to know me. And this person. Special person. Wanted to get to know me. and did it. I broke down the ice guarding my emotions. Let them out finally. After being trained into hiding them. Left myself. Left myself vulnerable... And now. They're disinterest in me is making me feel the effects of loneliness more than every. Before I was lonely. I was very lonely. But I didn't care. I didn't understand. I'd never experienced life being fun. And now I did. I experienced it being fun. And had it taken away from me. The worst thing there is in my experience. Having something you desire. Getting used to it. Taking it for granted. Than suddenly having it taken away. Going back to how you were. Going back to the fear, the loneliness, the sadness. Going back to everything you were before... And feeling just how terrible it is.