Congratulations on the job.
Hey JFG - don't worry about Safeway, I know someone who worked there and its awkward at first but you will learn the job soon enough.
I always take notes when working - not at work - when I get home, so I know the names of people, the various tasks, were things are and what they are called. This helps you settle in more and your less nervous once you know the job.
Stick with the job for say six months - that way you might actually get to like the job and maybe you will be more confident. Managers will have made the mistakes you made if they started on the shop floor. Everyone makes mistakes, so don't fret over them.
As for being on the trash - could be worse. In fact, starting at the bottom like that is the best thing. I'd volunteer for that job as are you not left on your own for a while?
So stick with - give it 6 months and look or apply for other jobs in the meantime.
I'm sure we will both get lucky soon brother.
As for for how you look - forget about putting yourself down and comparing yourself to others. I've always found that women like confidence more than looks - and a good sense of humour. I've never landed a woman with my looks - or attracted any with my looks either.
But given your most intimate moments of romance are generally in a dim light (night time is the right time for love and so on...) how you look does not matter.
Losing weight, that just takes a bit of time and self discipline. You could join a 'weight watchers club' - many men go to them and you might meet a nice women there.
Usually, love just surprises us - but it will come to use easier if we are out and about. Work might be boring but so is sitting at home watching afternoon TV, repeats of Oprah and other meaningless things.
Work gets you used to people - takes away your shyness a little as over the months you will 'bond' with fellow workers I'm sure.
Being in that environment will 'harden' you a little - get you used to the general banter of life and the little struggles and big ones that people around you will be having.
Make no mistake, people in your job will either have had depression or known people with it or are caring for those who might not be able to care for themselves.
For you - to be feeling so down yourself, but to be holding out in this job, is a great thing and it will open up a few doors for you.
For now, just settle into the job - write down stuff like I told you - names, things you need to know and so on. You WILL settle into the job - and although it is boring - it allows your mind to do its own thing. Try to talk with your fellow workers a little and you might have things in common and make a few friends.
Don't worry about things so much - but if you really are struggling with this and it affects work - then you can get help in the UK as we don't have to worry about health insurance.
Try and find some activity outside of work that interests you - socialising more is more likely to bring you some romance and love than a dating website or anything online.
Have some faith in yourself - I know its not easy, but start off by not even discussing your looks - period. They are what they are and ruminating over them is always self defeating. You can change your ways in other departments - like you say, weight loss is your main thing there - but wearing decent freshly laundered clothes, having a close shave or trimming the beard, washing your hair squeaky clean (maybe you can style it to suit your face) and being 100% clean all over - is a BIG bonus.
when I say 'decent' clothes, I'm not talking labels or costly show off clothes. Basic trousers, a nice shirt, shoes - that is hardly expensive stuff.
Finally, be polite and kind and considerate.
Good luck brother - hope things happen for you soon - but bear in mind a good woman is always worth the wait.