In a follow up from this post; http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?t=91206 Well after 3 weeks of on and off not talking, just the occassional text, a basic msn convo... Nothing has changed! I'm seeing him friday, its still a 'break' but it feels so bleak. He says he still loves me but I don't know how long I have to wait for him. I'd wait for him forever... but I feel this horrible feeling every day that he'll move on to someone less serious or more fun. I just want things to go back to the way they used to be when he'd give me a big hug and I would feel loved and happy for days. He says during this break we should be like friends... I don't understand breaks but I can't see him as a friend. Hes my soulmate and my love! We used to talk about getting married and 'forever and always' Its just all too much, I am taking pills now, but I still feel without a dought if he moved on I would commit suicide. Even if I don't get replies to this its good to get it all off my chest..