Been extremely lonely and desperate for a while.. And I long for a pet because it's the only way to keep me happy and in company. I don't really like the people around me because it hurts like hell to know they obviously don't care. I feel like no one cares, I feel like I'm not worth anything, I feel nothing. There's no point of living when there's no one you are living for. I can't feel happiness.. I loved this guy for 2 years, and I have a friend, who snooped in between us and took him from me. This sounds so childish and stupid, but I needed him, he was like, an anti-depressant sort of thing. Now looking back, I feel like I wasn't good enough for him. I felt like she was so much better than me. It hurts. I feel so suicidal, and my self harming is the only thing that soothes me.