I’m feeling extremely sad and lonely tonight.
I’ve had a good few days. By good, I mean emotionally. I had a good attitude through the ice storm mess and the normal mess. It didn’t overwhelm me. The sad and lonely just hit me hard tonight.
I was content, having one drink, playing a game, watching a show and waiting for the clothes to be done. Then boom
I think it’s mostly because my x called yesterday and tonight. He never calls on weekends. It hurts to know he is off having fun with his people and has moved on just fine. It feels like it’s being rubbed in my face. I still miss him so much. I know he doesn’t hurt me on purpose. He still cares and misses me too. It’s just different in my eyes.
It’s been over a year. I should have moved on more than I have. I wonder how long it will take. I know if I met someone I would be much better. I know I could be all in with someone who I connected with. X would be tucked away in my heart. There just isn’t anyone. I want to be content with my life alone if I never meet anyone else. I do okay, but the lonely feeling never goes away. It is always in the background.
I think it’s terrible that with all the lonely people out there, many of us can’t connect with another lonely soul.
I’ve had a good few days. By good, I mean emotionally. I had a good attitude through the ice storm mess and the normal mess. It didn’t overwhelm me. The sad and lonely just hit me hard tonight.
I was content, having one drink, playing a game, watching a show and waiting for the clothes to be done. Then boom
I think it’s mostly because my x called yesterday and tonight. He never calls on weekends. It hurts to know he is off having fun with his people and has moved on just fine. It feels like it’s being rubbed in my face. I still miss him so much. I know he doesn’t hurt me on purpose. He still cares and misses me too. It’s just different in my eyes.
It’s been over a year. I should have moved on more than I have. I wonder how long it will take. I know if I met someone I would be much better. I know I could be all in with someone who I connected with. X would be tucked away in my heart. There just isn’t anyone. I want to be content with my life alone if I never meet anyone else. I do okay, but the lonely feeling never goes away. It is always in the background.
I think it’s terrible that with all the lonely people out there, many of us can’t connect with another lonely soul.
