My therapist left a month ago. I tryed to contact her, but when i called her office, they told me she quit and went to New York.She was the only one i could talk to, and i dont even wanna go to therapy anymore. Im 16 and i like older women, and ive been trying to find one. I was in the mental hospital because i cut because i cant have a woman. Anyways, i know i shouldnt have but i messaged her on facebook, and she didnt respond..but she didnt block me either. i dont know what to do. Ive cut many times before. recently ive been getting in trouble, and a few days ago i went to jail for the first time. i was in there for 7 hours. i really miss her alot. i dont feel i can live anymore..but i havnt killed myself yet because i for sure wouldnt see her again. I bisexual and i believe im gong to hell because of that. i just want her to come back. I think something bad happned because she just all of a sudden moved to New york..She used to live in lasvegas...where i live now. One day i was crying and i went crazy but i didnt end my life. i feel like any time soon im going to do something stupid. ANy TIme SOOn. I just wanna see her again. I dont knw what to do anymore. i dont wanna go to therapy i dont even know why im on this site. considering i dont think noone can help with that.