I must say that I am wondering when my lonelyness will ever end. I now have to move again, several states away, and it SUCKS. I feel so lonely! I cant say how much I hurt, because it would be an understatement! I am physically and emotionally drained on the thought of even trying to keep on living. My birth day is in first week of may, and I will hit 37. Just another year of misery ahead! I am financially still hurting too, othewise I would have left my job that I so badly hate. How can you get a decent job with 10% or more unemployment rates, and with no BA degree?!! I feel trapped. I feel lonely! I feel that its time to end my life, but I just havent been able to bring myself to that point of doing it. I am scared of the methods, but would care less if I lived or died. Trapped between living and dying, and yet not living either. I am just surviving day by day, like im strapped to a rocket with no way of getting off of it! I go to bed crying, and I wake up crying and wondering how much of a F'd up life I have! God what a looser I am!