death is..scarry. it is. ive been through multiple atempts myself..and i never can truly do it. i guse i fear myself alot...but death is...it.
all a gun does is make it easier for you. <Mod edit: Luliby - triggering> if you have to die by a gun, then are you truly in pain, or are you jsut looking for the easiest way out? (sorry if this is regarded as a triger, but i felt it needed to be said. if it mus tbe edited, then by all means, do so.)
death is it. as far as we can say, it is the ending of the life we live here. adn i dont knwo why you feal this way. maybe youve been hurt in your life ove rand over again, and that day after day you cant see naythign bu the pain of people hating you. or perhasp your not what you want to be, and cant deal with it anymore, want a clean start, or any other reason. it must be tough. i kwo it ids for me, waking up every day and finding that you want to die, that the pain never goes away and that it feals liek it wil never end. o rtha tit has never ended.
...im askign you not to do this. i coudl say thereapy is needed (which i find helps me) or i could say people love you, or i could say anythign comforting. but comfort doesnt get rid of the pain and the overwhelming feeling you may have. it only helps, but it doesnt fully heal. as i said, i dont knwo what happended to you. but please...just hang on for now. your 19. you have, if your not kille dor kill yourself (or if deseas dosnt do it) about another 60 years left of life. 60 years to change, to experince, to try and live. its tough, adn it feals hopeless...but its time, adn that time can do wonders for people.
all i ask...is please...dont take the easy way out. dont just abondon life. try to liv eit without focusing on the pain. perhaps things may change. i cant say because i dont know you...but...
as somone who as failed at killing myself...i know that even when i want to stop living...i must go on. because then i can be someone who isnt a slave to my fear and my depresion and hate.
perhaps...you shoudl give it a try.